Small things

Approximately 3 years ago I started this adventurous journey of discovering more of Jesus in my workplace. It started with my frustration, the horrible feeling of realising what a hypocrite I have been! Acting one way in a church, with my Christian friends and then acting like a different person at my workplace. I am not saying I was mean and arrogant to my patients and colleaques, but you know, these small compromises of laughing at stupid jokes, trying to act cool whatever is happening around you and, most important, never show your real feelings!

I had to spent a great deal of my time working shifts, and at the same time I just longed to spend more time with Him. So logically, while He is omnipresent, I came to a conclusion I need to be more aware of His Presence at work. I wanted to be able to talk about Him freely with my colleagues, with my patients. But I couldn't. Something was holding me back. So I asked my pastor, who himself worked in hospitals for years, what to do.. And he told me one important thing: ,, You cannot enter the hospital unprepared." Well, he meant I should wake up one hour earlier every morning and pray and ask for specific people and situations, that will occur that day. Because if you are prepared for what is to come, you will not be overwhelmed by the circumstances.. Great, that meant waking up at 5am.. But I had to find out if it works!

And it did work. I could feel how His Presence entered my department with me. How His Peace, Love and Joy was released. I realised after working for years in hospitals that I have no love left form y patients. I was dry. So I started to ask the Lord to fill me with His Love for His people, for His beloved children. And He did, every morning. Then He started to show me some practical steps. For example coming to my workplace 15-20minutes earlier gave me the opportunity to talk with my nurses before the first patients arrived. Atmosphere of heaven was released as I shared my personal Jesus stories with them. And they were able to pass this Love on to our patients, who kept saying, it is so different here, you are all so friendly, we look forward to come next time etc. When I realised, that Holy Spirit is with me the whole day, sitting at my right hand, ready to help, I started asking Him more and more questions. How can I communicate His love to patients? What are they trying to tell me? And He started giving me simple lessons.. Like give them your undivided attention, see them, look them in the eyes, don't be occupied by your computer or phone. As I started doing it, more lessons came. Whenever we talk to somebody, there is always a body, soul and spirit-communication taking place. Each person has a spirit, as long as they breathe, there is a spirit of the living God in each of them! They may not walk and be lead by the spirit now, but it is there. Because we are created in God´s image and He is a triune being, so we are. So when your spirit is alive and vibrant, it will communicate and wake up the spirit of other people. That's why it is so important to keep our spirit alive at any cost! By being, talking and walking with God every minute of our busy lives.

God is faithfull. But you alone are responsible for the conversation you have with the Holy Spirit. He is very gentle and will rarely initiate the talk. He waits until you turn to Him and ask. He will reveal you things you never thought of and they are so simple and practical at the same time! Everyone can do this! You can communicate in your mind, don´t have to speak the words out loud. It is a thought-talk. I have talked to many people who are afraid to do what they hear/feel, because they are not sure where it comes from. Well, if the information agrees with the Scripture and you feel peace about it, you can ask for confirmation, but I would go for it. You can discern according to the fruit it brings. And even if it was my soulish thought, I can repent, God can correct me and bring me back where He wants me to be. I believe the worst thing is to stay, ignore the voice of the Holy Spirit and so grieve Him. And you are in danger that you will become insensitive to what He is saying and that you will loose the ability to hear Him.