Fully alive!

Psalms 32:8 „I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will guide you with my eye.” Yesterday I spent the whole evening with this verse. He wants us to know Him so intimately, that we will be moved just by one look of His eyes. He does not want to force us to obey Him. He wants us to be sensitive to His desires. This verse took me back.. Back to the moment when I experienced the power of His look. One evening, I was exhausted, discouraged, frustrated with how things were going.. So I came to Him.. as I was.. I did not pretend to be ok. I told Him I cannot do this anymore. We met in the garden, it was warm summer night, the sky was full of stars, so we laid down on a grass in a way, that only our heads were touching. I did not see His face, we did not talk, I just wanted to watch the stars. Suddenly they started dancing! They moved in a beautiful pattern, it was breathtaking. At the same time I realised Jesus was moving the stars with the look of...

It was already late as I runned into His arms again, but this time He was already outside the house, waiting for me. As we embraced, I heard Him say: „You make me happy!” Really??? And He continued: „Most of My children ask Me to make them happy, so it is really refreshing when someone makes Me happy.” First I thought: Jesus must have had a really tough day. But wait, how can I make YOU - Creator of universe, Saviour of the world, Healer of all souls, happy??? Undone again.. Lord, You say 4 words and You turn my world around.. In John 17,13 MSG Jesus prayed for us: „So my people can experience my joy completed in them.” That means His people can bring Him joy! He prayed that we may be one with Him. We, our hearts were His motivation. We sometimes forget, that we are His reward. He went through all this horrible suffering and pain not only to save us, but also to enjoy us. So I try to live from this place. Am I His reward today or do I add to His pain and suffering? Do I make...